Disaster Syd+

Journey.

2012-02-06T02:44:00.000-08:00

My principle.

2011-12-24T11:14:00.000-08:00

Some people come into our lives for reasons and leave us some lessons that make us better in future. Thank them for that.

Nothing, really.

2011-11-25T06:10:00.001-08:00

Hi, everyone.

It's been awhile that I didn't update this blog for approximately 10 days. Within that ten days, I've been away to Desaru for family vacation, to Sarawak for a few days; settling down some of my stuffs there, teeth extraction (THE MOST PAINFUL THING I EVER HAD). Soon, I'll be taking photos of myself wearing braces. InsyaAllah, by next month. Sorry that I couldn't update longer post this time as I'm having a mild fever right now. My antibody is weak and I bet this might be the cause of injection that I get yesterday during the teeth extraction. Really can't stand of the heat, my current weight is only 40kg. My dad is seriously freaking out when he knew about it. Ya Allah, please make me become stronger to overcome this. Amin.

Status Permohonan Penerapan.

2011-11-15T03:56:00.001-08:00

ALHAMDULILLAH!

*smile with tears* God knows how I feel. Syukran.

Final Result

2011-11-04T09:54:00.000-07:00

I didn't really expect this but I'm so grateful of what I get for my result. I was having a rough time; I was sick for two sicks until a day before final, my laptop broke down so suddenly while my assignments were still in it, etc. My friends asked me did I ask for a reward from my parents, I said, "No". Why? I'm satisfied for what I got now and I just hope that I will do better in future. Nothing to be proud of instead, I'm so thankful to Allah SWT for it. Saying "Syukur Alhamdulillah" will never enough for me. I want to congratulate all my friends from UiTM who got dean's list for this semester & for others, strive for the best for next semester. Chances will always come to you if you're willing to give your best shot for it. :-)

Hi.

2011-10-27T04:16:00.000-07:00

I miss typing a new blog post here, so I'm gonna make one. Hi there, I know I've been missing for quite a few days, been busy posting items & updating some new stuffs here. Alhamdulillah that I finally managed to open my own blogshop, selling out my stuffs and I'm aiming to clear them out before I'm going back to Sarawak, of course.

As usual, things are doing well here, except for the fact that I'm getting bored staying at home during this semester break while waiting for final result which will be coming out next Friday on November 4th. Damn, I'm kinda nervous, scared to look at it. I would go crazy by the time I received a mail from UiTM. Like seriously, I did for the last two semesters. Alhamdulillah for that as well.

I don't know what else to say here but I really do miss my old self; I was a clever girl when it comes to blogging yet now, things changed when me, myself gone into a whole brand new stage called college life. Jyeah. I hardly find a suitable time for myself to online. Even if I'm online, I would use that time for doing my assignments, etc. Feel like going back to high school; life was better back then. I couldn't go back in time & be forever teenager. There's no such thing as that.

Talking about being a forever teenager, I couldn't believe I will be 20 next year. Seriously? Time flies so fast huh.

Enjoy!

I'm a hijabi & a muslim.

2011-10-17T08:33:00.000-07:00

Remember that I used to a free hair person? I was a free hair person, about 2 years. I coloured my hair, I cut it to short so that I looked boyish. Retarded much, huh? Exactly. I know.

When I started to look at myself when I was about 16 to 17 years old, I saw myself back then. My mind said, "What was I doing in those days?" as my heart was like broken into pieces. Yes, I regret so much for not doing a right thing and I took this as a lesson in my life.

Alhamdulillah, I've changed and yet, I still feel that I need to mend myself. I feel more secure when wearing hijab and I find that I receive more respect from other people as well. I find myself so calm when reading some parts of Al-Qur'an and Hadith. I used to try some styles of wearing hijab via youtube, tutorials, etc. Yes, I've tried them out but I don't really comfortable in that way, so I decided to wear it out in a simplest way yet comfortable. Now, I'm back to basic; I wear tudung bawal going to the class, going out with my friends and I don't bother if my friends ask me this, "why don't you try some other style?" "Why you have to wear the same tudung all over again?" Hey, hijab doesn't mean you have to wear something stylish, right? Remember this: when less is more?

I still remember what it was like to be one; reverting back to wear hijab. A lot of my friends asked me this "How do you feel when you wear hijab again?" I feel much better than before. Yes, at first I felt as if people staring at me, those looks said something like this: Is it true this girl wearing hijab again? I felt uncomfortable at first, for a few weeks. Then, I started not to care about what people think of me. Don't simply judge what on my head, but judge what's inside.

"Wearing hijab is not only about preserving who you are physically or how you present yourself, it’s also about protecting your modesty from seeing eyes."
*Credit goes to {Maida}

Besides that, I don't understand why people nowadays judging others because of their past times. Yes, what past id already left behind and surely, we all couldn't change it BUT what we all can do is, take it as a lesson. Make yourself into a better person, pray to Allah SWT. He will listen to us, no matter where you are, 24/7. He will guide us, you yourself have to show your effort on it. People can change. Don't just simply judge because we don't know what it's like to be in their shoes.

One more thing, I already heard so much of excuses but "I'm not ready yet" excuse is the common excuse of all. Seriously? When will you start to wear hijab? Ok, I admit it, I used to be one of them too but that one particular day I started to think; life is surely too short for us. "Amalan itu dah cukup nak jadi bekalan ke akhirat nanti?" "Kenapa masih terpinga-pinga nak ikut ke tak?" Imagine one day Malaikatulmaut comes to us, ketuk pintu kita dan kita pula masih terpinga-pinga nak pergi ke tak sebab amalan kita tak cukup. Sekali dia datang, kita pergi. There's no way of turning back. Kalau jodoh tak kira umur, ajal juga begitu. We may not know when we die but all I can say is that we all have to pray to Allah SWT, dimintakan panjang umur, moga diampuni dosa dan menjadi seorang yang baik. Amin Ya Raba'alamin.

So, that's all for now my sisters, my friends & whoever read this. Jazak'Allah Khairun for spending your time to read and I would like to say sorry if there's any content that may offend some of you. I'm sorry again. Take care, salam.

Semester Break.

2011-10-14T09:41:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I'm currently addicted playing this game called Sims Social.

Secondly, I'm planning to do a short term 'small business' in which I would sell off my preloved stuffs on my facebook and I would love to show it here as well. In the beginning of the plan, I would sell off 25 pieces first and let's see how it goes. And speaking about facebook, I'm sorry that I'm not yet approving those who are adding me through facebook as I have this massive friend requests; 144 friend requests on hold. Like seriously. I will take some time to approve them all, check one by one. Okay?

Last but not least, there's a thing that I did which I will have to wait patiently and see if I could make it. Only a few knew about this, beside my family. I'm hoping and really am hoping that my dream going for it will come true. Amin. Oh, I heard that final examination result will come out on 4th November. Seriously? Like, two weeks from now? Let's just pray and surely, don't be panic. I'm thinking of sitting for MUET. Maybe, in next year. Who's with me?

I really need to spend my time with my old boyfriend; my Canon EOS 40D. I need to start taking pictures tomorrow. I bet some of you might be missing my workpiece.

Bye.

2011-10-12T06:51:00.000-07:00

My new favourite cartoon to be watched.

Finally.

2011-10-08T13:07:00.000-07:00

I reached home on 7th October at 9 p.m. The first day wasn't okay as something had happened which was bad enough to destroy the chill inside. Anyway, nothing much of plans, but I rather not to plan anything first. Let it be random, that would be much fun. I guess. Most of my friends are on final mode since they're mostly studying at polytechnics, other private universities, etc. One of the things I'll be doing during semester break would be finding a job. In need of cash right now to buy a new laptop for myself. Currently downloading Adele's songs and totally in love with all of them!

Hello, Kuala Lumpur. It's good to be home, I finally came back to where I belong.

Best of Luck

2011-09-18T01:57:00.000-07:00

New life has just begun.

First paper of final is going to be on tomorrow, evening. And my last paper will be on 7th October, in the morning. I am really sorry that I don't really have the time to update this blog for time being. But just letting you know, I'm active on Twitter. Wish me luck, love. ♥

Man.

2011-08-24T09:38:00.000-07:00

I want a man who will look into my eyes whenever I say "I'm okay" and tell me that actually I'm not.

13th Day of Ramadhan.

2011-08-13T07:45:00.000-07:00

The fact that I wasn't being invited by my friends to break fast together with them, honestly I'm used to it. Being apart from my family, it's my second year of not having iftar nor break fast with them. How I miss those old times when I was a happy kid, staying at home with them. Now, things are different. I don't expect that life will always be beautiful. As I'm 19 years old already, I realised how life taught me how to be strong, not depending on anyone else around. Yeah, I'm quite happy for it. It's just that sometimes I hate the fact that I always be the person who left behind. You know how it feels like to do things all alone by yourself. It sucks.

Think about it, at least for awhile.

Get well soon, Ashraf Haziq.

2011-08-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

I'm no his sister or cousin, his friend etc but truly, I couldn't imagine how it feels like to be in his shoes. I was almost burst into tears reading the news about it; while he was on his way to buy his food for iftar, he was beaten by some 'good Samaritans' until his lower jaws smashed and was robbed at the same time. I've seen the video via Youtube, seriously I just couldn't imagine the pain that he felt that time as he was lying bleeding on the street during London riots. I mean, if I was him, I won't be able to stand up and fight back those big-bodied thugs nor defending myself from being beaten by them. My prayer goes to him, and for those who are studying in overseas. Hope you guys stay safe there and be conscious towards surrounding, we wouldn't know what would happen next, same goes to myself.

Amin. May God bless you all. Take care, guys.

Ramadhan.

2011-07-31T14:20:00.000-07:00

I don't feel well right now due to flu, seriously in need of tissue. I've been trying to finish up all my assignments. If possible, I would want them to be done on time. Here's the list:

1. Construction Technology:-

Structural (materials) on August 8.
Staircases on August 24.

2. Thoughts of Nation Leader I:-

~~Individual on August 3.~~
Group on August 3 & 10.

3. Building Services - Mechanical Handling System on September 12.

4. Construction Economics:-

~~Part A on August 4.~~
Part B on August 19.
Tutorials.

5. Measurement of Construction Works III:-

Specification on August 24.
Group assignment on *not sure*.
Individual assignment on *not sure*.

6. Islamic & Environmental Management - Pemulihan Tempat di UiTM on September 9 & presentation will be on August 16.

7. ~~English for Academic Purposes - Draft on August 4.~~

Hahaha! I know, banyak gila. I just listed them down so that I would remember. I procrastinate a lot. Well, most of the time but it's time for me to stop doing it because final will be on September 19th. A month and a half more to go. Last but not least, I'm here to wish happy fasting to all Muslims out there. Hopefully this month will be meaningful for all of us. :-) take care!

Hello, July.

2011-07-02T21:41:00.000-07:00

My superb friends have been moved to Serapi including my former roommate, Syazana. She asked for my permission first via SMS but the text message that she gave really hurt me inside a little bit. She said that it would be near to the class so I decided to reply her text and say, "Ok". I feel all alone, being myself here. My group members have also moved to another block which is quite near to the class and they don't even bother to go to the class with me anymore like we used to. Like I expected, friends do change from time to time. The only one who stays is the one who is willing to be there for us no matter what. :/

The first and second semester had really taught so many things in life. Thanks to them I managed to survive until now and honestly, I'm having such a wonderful time right now. I had a new roommate which seems to be a happy-go-lucky type of person and more friendly, I would like to talk to her so that I would know about her more. I would love to have a roommate who would share anything, do something together like I used to have happy moments with my former roommate when I was in first semester.

Sometimes I just wish that I could turn back into time because things change in just the blink of an eye. :-|

Precious Moment.

2011-06-23T13:21:00.000-07:00

:-)

Future Plan, again!

2011-06-16T12:59:00.000-07:00

Had a talk with my bestfriend, Nana a few days ago about our big plans for the future. Here's how the talk went on.

Nana: Sya, pergi tak Fast Track next year?

Aku: Insya-Allah but still wondering whether I should go for it or not since I heard so many negative rumors about it. About getting into Fast Track won't make us marketable and that will make us so hard to get a job since we are only required so little time to go for practical, not as much as Diploma's.

Nana: Actually I got big plan for it. I really want to do my Master in UK after getting my degree and will be working there for a few years maybe. My dad told me people are getting employed based on their highest qualification. Macam mana pula dorang yang ada STPM or dari Matriks masuk terus ke Degree in QS? Yang buat Nana bersemangat pasal ni bila Nana pergi kerja sekejap kat company hari itu, budak UTM sendiri yang bagitau. There's no difference between them and us.

Aku: You're right. I really, really want to go for Fast Track so badly.

... And actually, I'm still deciding for it. Again and again, I ask my dad the same thing, "Abah, nak pergi fast track atau habiskan diploma?" and he says, "Ikutkan Abah, habiskan diploma and belajar pergi ke luar negara terus". Dad seems to give high hopes on me but I'm scared that I don't fulfill what he's hoping for. Nevertheless, I will endeavor to succeed and make my dad proud of it.

Last but not least, I need opinions on this. What do you guys think about this? Should I go for Fast Track (Penerapan Ke Sarjana Muda UiTM Selepas 3 Semester Pertama) or should I get my Diploma first and go for Degree level? Send me an email at sydrahim@gmail.com or you can leave me a message via Facebook.

Thanks!

2011-06-04T08:45:00.000-07:00

I am sure that everyone loves the feeling to be in love with someone and to be loved by someone. In my opinion, loving the one who we love so much would be hard for us to let go. To forget every single thing that we had been through together, to get rid of things that the person ever gave to us and the most difficult part is moving on. Yep, love does hurt sometimes. Yet one day, there will be a new person that will come into our lives and we have to start knowing him/her from the beginning again. This is what we called 'Love Cycles'.

I'm quite disappointed with my previous relationships and thank you to the past that made me become wiser. I took the lessons from the mistakes that I made in the past. Do not make fake promises and do not expect him/her to give anything we want. Yes, I'm sure that giving full commitment with our partner would be tough. Unless we are ready for it. Right now, I'm just gonna have to forget all the things that I've been through in the past and start to do things that are necessary and worth to think about. Let God handle this for me. Have a faith in Him because He knows what's the best for all of us.

Take care.

Result Final!

2011-05-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for making me strong through out the second semester. I hope I would stay in dean-list for next semester. :-D

Double Woot.

2011-05-07T11:35:00.000-07:00

Just to congratulate my sister who just got Diploma in Art and Design (Graphic Design) at UiTM Alor Gajah, Melaka. Gonna buy her stuffs on Monday. How lucky she is!

Quick Updates.

2011-05-06T02:03:00.000-07:00

1. Just got back from Kuching, Sarawak and I really miss Kuala Lumpur a lot more than I could ever expected. Staying at home is better, I meant 10 times better than being stuck at the boring hostel for 3 months. Things that I don't like about college is that I have to survive on my own which I could only cook Mi Sedap for myself. Second, I have to be struggling for myself especially on studies. There's no other things that I should be focused on. You know how boring it was to be stuck in a boring place like that? To be honest, I'd been suffered for the last 3 months without going home and I'm kinda... proud of it? B'cos my dad told me that he used to stay in US for 3 years without going back to Malaysia. Can you imagine that? Like Dad, don't you ever feel missing your family so much as much as I do? And he said, "No, cos' I have so much fun there. I traveled a lot". Ok, that explains it.

2. Dad suggested me to finish up my diploma so that I could continue my study for Degree as well as Master in UK which seems to be a better idea. First of all, I don't have struggle if I go for fast track. All I need now is to enjoy my university's life instead of pushing myself on study. I mean, I'd enough of study but that doesn't mean I give up on study. Well, almost. So, what do you guys think? :)

3. Like I mentioned before, I've been into Twitter a lot more as compared to Facebook nor Blogger, not even Flickr. Facebook annoys me like almost everyday with those weird applications and inappropriate stuffs especially about Osama's death. Ok, hey stop playing around like that as if he's some kind of toy to be dumped into a dustbin. He's a human being, a mortal like you guys. So, stop hacking my friends' accounts just to spread out this weird applications or notes. What can you gain from it?

Chill out. Sorry for being so rude throughout this entry or being lame, I guess. I like this song a lot, it keeps playing in my mind. Hope you guys enjoy it. <3

Lost hope.

2011-05-04T03:03:00.000-07:00

Thanks for screwing my day,
you-know-who-you-are.

:)

Whatever.

2011-04-09T12:09:00.000-07:00

#Current song: Norah Jones - Don't Know Why

It's raining now and yeah I could say that it is cold here as much as if you live at the top of the hill. I'd made Nescafe for the third time just to keep me warm and awake at this particular time. Tweeting has been part of my routine and I think getting myself attach to it has made me become an addict. Yeah, some people might agree with me about this. I've been addicted to it ever since I found that most of my friends are totally into Twitter rather than Facebook. Ok, I sound like a noob.

My life is boring. I need to find a way out from this old boring life. I spend my 24/7 in the campus. I don't really go out unless if I need to buy something from the town, I don't really watch television that already been provided by UiTM for the students at every hostel, I spend my time tweeting via phone, I spend my time mostly with notes and books for mid-terms and final is just around the corner. I have so many things to catch up before final and I've been wondering; Am I able to maintain my dean list? Every time we are announced about the upcoming test, my classmates would always ask these to the lecturers:
"Apa yang keluar time test nanti? Susah tak?"

And of course, most of the lecturers would say this:
"Kalau belajar, senanglah jawabnya"

As simple as that. Isn't it? Ok guys, I need to sleep now. Bye

Dearest Japan.

2011-04-07T20:05:00.000-07:00

Japan Earthquake 2011:
Magnitude 7.4 Temblor Causes Tsunami Warning

I would want to join if there is any organization that is made for people who want to volunteer to help Japan in term of food, clothes and give them a shelter to stay. My tears fell down to my cheeks when I watch this video. Imagine how would we be in this kind of situation. Will we ever be able to survive? Click here and here, you'll know how I feel right now.

PRAY FOR JAPAN
PRAY FOR THE WORLD

Big Smile.

2011-04-07T13:23:00.000-07:00

"Hello there, pretty boy"

Move on.

2011-04-05T22:48:00.000-07:00

Final will be on 20th April and I'll be back to Peninsular on 1st May. :-)

I'd think 10 times before I register new courses for next semester. I don't really care about getting myself out from the old group to the new group.

Wish me luck for the final. I just need to do my best for it since my carry marks are sucks to the max as compared to the last semester. Only a few friends of mine noticed that I've become so stressed up recently till I get sick. For first time in my life since getting in to the campus life, I got MC from the doctor on that particular day because I was suffering from an infection that had been making my nose feel pain from inside and I had a mild fever which had led to a very painful headache at night. Lack of sleep, lack of vitamin, that's what I get now.

Apalah nasib, kan?

Feedback.

2011-04-02T07:51:00.000-07:00

Thanks to the compliments saying that this blog is given the TMABE award. In other word, The Most Annoying Blog Ever. Thanks again! :-)

Happy news.

2011-03-26T10:52:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU, DAD! *Big hugs*

The Sky is Falling.

2011-03-19T21:21:00.000-07:00

For clearer view, click here. I'll make sure that I'll take more photos after this. :-)

This Could Save Lives.

2011-03-19T20:26:00.000-07:00

I want! 2#

2011-03-19T12:36:00.001-07:00

I'MMA WANNA THEM ALL PLZ :-O
- All credit goes to Tumblr

University's life.

2011-03-19T11:50:00.000-07:00

1. Assignments on hold:
- Construction Technology II (Almost done!)
- Construction Law I: Law of Contract (Halfway done)
- Pemikiran Tamadun Islam: Konsep ilmu dalam Islam serta pengaruh tamadun Islam kepada ilmu pengetahuan (Not yet start)
- Measurement of Construction Works II: Wall (Halfway done)
- Measurement of Construction Works II - Costing: Windows (Not yet started)

2. Mid-term tests:
- Intermediate English Test on 10/3, 14/03, 16/03
- Construction Law Test on 15/03/2011
- Pemikiran Tamadun Islam Test on 22/03/2011
- Building Services Test on 28/03/2011

My aim is to settle down my things-that-needed-to-be-done-this-month as soon as possible before final. I haven't done any revision for my final. Thanks to my packed schedule, I don't have much time left to prepare myself before final yo and to be honest, I admit that I am one of those who procrastinate their work. LAWL. Everyone does. I'd just done my part on Construction Technology II report and I did do for the other parts as well so that I can hand in this report early.

I've been active on my Tumblr, I reblog pictures and quotes that really relate to my life. Yeah, as compared to blogger, Tumblr has been the place where I find my inspiration and so on. LAWL, for what? Talking about pictures, I've been missing to take photos using my DSLR. :-| Seriously it's been ages that I didn't update my Flickr account like I used to. My recent posts are filled with long essays, not with pictures anymore. WHY THE HECK AM I NOT TAKING PICTURES ANYMORE?

I need to lie down on my bed now. Blank my mind. Take my blanket and wrap myself up. Close my eyes and sleep. X

Tsunami Hits Japan.

2011-03-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

The news about the tsunami strikes Japan again spread through my timeline from Twitter as well as Tumblr. I felt pity for them who couldn't survive from this kind of catastrophe but at the same time, I felt scared. Scared as how a child or a family who would be involved in this kind of situation. I always think how are we going to save ourselves if one day Tsunami or earthquake or something hits our country? At first, I heard that Malaysia might be hit by the tsunami at 18:49 P.M. This might caused by the earthquake of 8.9-magnitude all the way from Japan. Fortunately, Malaysian Meteorological Center says that "Assesment: No Threat of Tsunami in Malaysia" which is THANK GOD but anything can happen or change in a second.

So I dedicate this to all girls and guys out there, please do pray for us all to your God. For Muslims, please and please pray to Allah for our safety from any unexpected circumstances in any time. Pray for Him everyday, every time because we might not know what happens next. Right? We must pray for us, for the others, for the world. God will hear all our prayers and protect us all. Insya-Allah. We might not know if one day, a calamity might come to our country so sudden, from nowhere. Others will do the same thing for us because we all do concern about each other.

"World is dying. All we can do is to pray to God" - Syd Rahim

This is Not a Quick Update.

2011-03-11T00:18:00.000-08:00

It's 1:32 in the morning, I hate when it comes to I-can't-sleep problem especially in the morning. Trust me, it is sucks. But anyway, internet helps me to do some research on hijab tutorials. Well, at least I do something (other than doing assignments) and seriously, I need to get out from this campus once a while to take a fresh air or driving somewhere else where I don't usually go or maybe rent a bike and ride all the way from UiTM to Kuching or something productive. Apart from that, I would want to say that my life is getting better. Alhamdulillah.

To be honest, my friend and I just got into an accident a week ago. Twice on the same day. Well, can I just skip that part which includes how that accident happened? I mean, the problem of paying the debt and dealing with this desperate-guy-asked-me-for-money-ASAP had been settled down. The truth is at first, I was the one who should be dealing with him but then, plan changed instead, my dad who wanted to deal with him. I can't say more. I called that particular guy and told him about this. He sounded as if he really needs that money to repair the damage. It's not that I'm not paying for it. I mean, if this ever happens to you, do please negotiate in a nice way when dealing with people who really want to pay for the maintenance. DO GO TO THE NEAREST WORKSHOP OR SOMETHING TO REPAIR THE DAMAGES AND SHOW THE RECEIPT AS A PROOF. It is not wrong for you to be nice with the person if you ask for the money. Come on, is it difficult to do so?

I took this as a lesson because it was my first time experience how it feels like to be in an accident. If I ever got into an accident again, I would seriously take photos of the damages and try not to be panic, stand up for yourself because once you're in the panic mode, that person will automatically condemn you like serious shitz with IT'S-ALL-YOUR-FAULT tone towards you although it was just a minor damage. Why? They want your money not just to pay for the maintenance but you know, extra money. Don't get trick but if you really want to curb this problem quickly, I bet you have to pay more in order to make this person to shut up.

Accident happens anytime but I hope I won't be involve in any accident again. Last but not least, I'm sorry if this really made you feel offended or something. I know how boring my blog is for you guys to read but I just want to say THANK YOU for stopping by. Take care. X

Aysha.

2011-03-08T07:11:00.000-08:00

*menangis*

Rasa Tak Sedap Hati.

2011-02-27T20:09:00.000-08:00

Life's been quite okay recently except for the incident where I find that one of my group members hasn't done anything or doesn't contribute something to our group assignment. I know he's quite busy with his Part 1 syllabus and takes 2 subjects out of 8 subjects from Part 2 but hey, we're trying to help you up. Seriously, do help us back. We're together as a team and this isn't an individual task. And because of him, we were doing the report and drawings at the very last minute. We were given a week to get this report done and a week for presentation. I mean, seriously we were running out of time.

But somehow, I realised once I handed in the report, I think the whole report doesn't really explain which methods we are going to use for the presentation. Tadaa! Terlampau rajin punya pasal sampai semua benda main letak je dalam report and hopefully sangat tak dapat markah yang rendah. We're going to do a presentation on Bulding Services I at 5 o'clock in the evening. Hopefully, through this presentation, we will redeem what we had done before. Please do give us high marks. Pleaaaasseeeeee :-(

Last but not least, FYI; I'm done with group assignments and presentations. Next up, I'll give the opportunity to others to make the report as well as presentation. Enough of being the group leader. :-|

Wish.

2011-02-20T16:44:00.000-08:00

I want to go for Fast Track so badly.
I want to go for Fast Track so badly.
I want to go for Fast Track so badly.
I want to go for Fast Track so badly.
I want to go for Fast Track so badly.

My bestfriend and I had a conversation yesterday while was doin' Building Services I report at the middle of night.

"Kawan Nana yang budak matriks boleh dapat kerja, I still want to go for fast track"
"Me too. B'cos kita practical not only 6 weeks. Sekarang degree cuti 4 months"
"Right!"

It's not about whether you're graduated Diploma Student or Matrix Student, it's about chance. It's your choice/option to grab the chance but it's a big possibility that we have to compete with others especially polytechnic students/diploma students. Um, that's my point of view. I don't know what will others might say about this.

Life's kind of stressful right now, doing assignments is a must-to-do-list everyday. I don't really studying consistently like I used to. I hope I can cope all the syllabus as soon as possible. I can't believe that March is just around the corner, then wallah! April is coming right after March. Final, oh yeah. :-O So far, I like Measurement of Construction Works II more than Measurement of Construction Works I. As my lecturer said you're going to measure something that you see, you touch everyday. Windows, Doors, floor finishes, wall finishes except that we don't touch ceiling finishes and pitched roof for sure. :-)

Oh God, save me from these assignments. Naik muak dah.

Funny thing happened.

2011-02-17T04:49:00.000-08:00

I called PTPTN hotline number and here what was happened:

*dialing*

"Salam, ini adalah PTPTN... bla bla bla... Jika anda menggunakan MyKad, sila tekan 1. Jika anda gunakan passport, sila tekan 2."

*press the button 1*

"Sila masukkan nombor MyKad anda"

*Lembab! 92----*

"Untuk membuat semakan status... sila tekan 1 (2, 3, 4, 5, 6,) Untuk berhubung dengan pegawai PTPTN, sila tekan 7..."

Akhirnya, dapat juga dapat bercakap dengan pegawai PTPTN selepas beberapa minit kena dengar arahan khas itu. Wanted to ask about the application because I applied during the last semester but I didn't manage to hand it over due to that I didn't have the surat akuan bercerai ibu bapa to show that I'm staying with my dad and separately from my mum. I'd been suffering during the last semester but fortunately, I was able to survive because I ate once a day, I spent money on necessary things only. I would say that being a survivor during the first semester was the hardest thing to do in my life. Ha-ha-ha. Okay, just kidding but seriously. You know what I mean.

Remember that I mentioned about going on to the fast track? Penerapan ke degree level. No? I changed my mind after hearing what my lecturer said about the Pros and Cons of doing the fast track. As compared to Diploma, Diploma students are more marketable because they are looking for students with job experience (from practical). They are given 6 months to do practical training but as for those who are doing fast track, they would do the training during their semester break (if I'm not mistaken. 6 weeks) so obviously if they're 6 months of training, the manager/boss/whoever he is (the one who has the highest post in the construction industry/company) may know you well. Perhaps you can also be offered to work with them after graduate, if you're lucky enough). The best part when you're taking fast track is you will be graduating degree level one year earlier.

Aku taip pun makin lama makin macam tak betul --biol.

Our heart is like a glass.

2011-02-16T01:14:00.000-08:00

Aku sekarang sepatutnya sambung balik buat assignment Building Services I report, due date hari Isnin minggu depan tapi aku sedang kusyuk memasang telinga mendengar lagu ini. Enjoy! :-)

Internetz.

2011-02-13T21:10:00.001-08:00

I'm posting this through my phone, my not-so-sophisticated-phone called Nokia 2730 classic. I know it's such a lame phone but for me, it's fine. As long as I can listen to songs, take pictures, surf the internet, texting and calling my friends, I'm okay with it. Yeah, I'd mentioned that I want a Nokia E5 via my twitter. I guess I'll have to save my money to get one. Hoho, I think it's much more easier to surf the internet via phone as compared to laptops/computers. B'cos my broadband sucks to the max as my mum pays RM100 monthly and it's just the same. Unless you're at home and yes, you can get access to the internet easily. Despite that, I'm using DiGi Easy Prepaid which I spend RM3 and I'll spend free internet the whole day. I'd heard that maxis imposed RM2 or RM3 for only a few hours, right? And that's why I'm using DiGi now. Ha-ha, what am I typing here? Oh, craps.

Hooyeah!

2011-02-12T12:08:00.000-08:00

So, currently I'm activating myself on Twitter. :-) Hee!

Thanks A Lot yo!

2011-02-03T14:22:00.000-08:00

*BIG SMILE!*

Truth.

2011-02-01T12:44:00.000-08:00

You give someone a second chance and in the end, you're the one that gets hurt.

Mission for today: Failed!

2011-02-01T11:37:00.000-08:00

Ha-ha-ha, dad didn't allow me to go to Shah Alam. But then, he gave me some money to buy the building encyclopedia/dictionary rather than get a copy from the original book (1. Students are not allow to borrow/bring reference books outside from the library) and that's why I couldn't manage to get the book. And believe it or not, I was driving my dad's car with my sisters. Went to KLCC, bought the Building Dictionary from Kinokuniya for RM161. (Jaws down!) I know. Besides that, I'd bought a pair of jeans, two pieces of long sleeves shirts, a dark grey cardigan. Mum bought me a pair of navy blue sneakers and a leather tote bag yesterday. (Thanks mum!)

Thank you, Allah.

Although my parents had divorced 15 years ago, although that I didn't get the chance to feel how it feels like to stay and live with my own mum, I'm still grateful that I can still meet her, I can still contact her through phone and say I love you to her every night before sleep. I can still drive her car, pick her up in Nilai, drive back to KL and spend my day with her and my sister. I'll miss her everyday for sure. :-(

Dad, as well. You've always support me financially. You've taken care of me ever since I was born. I'm sorry that I've been quite a bad daughter to you but I promised that I won't let you down this time.

Sob sob. Bye, guys.

A Milli.

2011-01-31T14:10:00.002-08:00

I woke up, my eyes hurt. I felt hungry after a long day of driving. I felt damn exhausted, fatigue much. I ate Mars Bars, the only thing that can calms me down. My all-favourite ecstasy that relieves my stress. My favourite 'painkiller' that helps me to get rid of sadness. I realised that I'd just lose in a game. How cool is that? I've been wasting my time on someone that is useless. In other word, loser suits him better. I'd rather quit from his filthy game. He's been quite a good 'user'. I'd better be careful next time. Mum said that I'd be lucky to realise that this is just a part of my life. I took this as a lesson, I hope if I get a chance one day, I would like to slap him hard enough to widen up his eyes, let him see what has he done throughout these years. Haih

My missions for today:
1. Drive to Shah Alam, find building encyclopedia.
2. Start on construction technology assignment.
3. Find and borrow books about timber based products from library.
4. Shoppin' (if needed, haha)
5. Drive all around in Kuala Lumpur.
6. Watch youtube. Find interesting videos to watch.

I found this video and you guys should watch this. I like his videos as much as I like him. Ha-ha-ha! Oh God, send me a guy like Ryan who would make me laugh all the time. Lolz.

Worst, even worst.

2011-01-30T10:06:00.000-08:00

*Currently listening to Maher Zain - Rest of my life.
I just love that song for a very long time. Up until now, I won't get bored listening to his song. Especially this one.

I just finished studying on measurement, calculating on doors and windows. I've got construction technology group assignments on timber based products which I've not done anything on it. Gah! I need to start as soon as possible. And I'm doing my BEL Quizzes on myline.utm.my for Pre-Muet Test. Did you know that 10% will be included as well for your final exam when you're doing this? I'm not sure about you guys but my lecturer told the whole class of mine to do this. :-)

In the mean time, I was texting with Amar. Telling him that I want his phone back (the one I used to buy for him) and guess what? Wallah! Right after I sent the text, someone's texts had just appeared in my inbox, sent by a very familiar anonymous.

--

"Wei ? Ko nk balik foNnye . . ? Amek urh ! Buruk siku . . Dh bgi lepas 2 ungkit2 . . . Bodoh pnye poMpuan . . Nmpk sgt ko x syg dye . . Mase dye smpurne ko nk dye smpai gado ngan aqu . , lpas dye mcm nie ko dh xnk kat dye . . ? Memang babi larh kau . . Org ******* memang mcm nie ea perangainye . . ? ?"

--

SHE IS A REAL STALKER. See? I think she had read every messages that I send to Amar. Fcuk you guys both. I want the phone back because he is stabbing my back over and over. The stalker had setup the phone so that she can keep on stalking my text messages. But then, I replied her text. You know, I won't be shut my mouth up sometimes especially when it gets into my nerves.

--

"Pergilah belikan handphone ada 3G, MMS, internet untuk dia, wahai isteri Amar yg kononnya sah. (: kau kan yang nak jaga dia sangat? Syg kat dia kan? Pergilah bersanding cepat, akad nikah, ada anak cepat. Lebih baik kau berhenti saja sekolah"

--

My expectation was right. She told about the text above to Amar and he said "Cantik bahasa bagi kat budak tu". Amboi, perli but I would like to take that as a compliment. Thank you, backstabber! 2 years of wasting my time loving you with all my heart but why choosing me at the first place? Why not her? You knew her before you knew me, sucker. I don't care if you really want her but seriously, one day you will regret. What were you saying just now?

"Sekarang saya tengah mencari perempuan yang boleh tahan dengan perangai saya, jaga saya dengan baik. Antara awak dengan perempuan tu"

Cilaka. What am I? A paper doll? So that you can just throw me into the rubbish bin when I'm no longer useful to you? It sounds like you're using me so that the girl feel jealous about us, showing that how much she loves you. Just to notify that? Like seriously? Oh, come on. THIS IS WASTING MY TIME, MY ENERGY. You think you're smart enough to beat me up. Ok, fine. I quit. I'm sick of your games. It's worthless and you guys SHOULD BE MARRIED. MAY GOD BLESS YOU GUYS BOTH.

Amin.
Amar, you spoiled my day. Thanks again, heartbreaker.

I'm excited!

2011-01-27T07:39:00.000-08:00

That I'm going back to semenanjung!
Seriously, I just want to go back where I belong. Thanks dad, I promised I won't let you down this time. I'll score for this semester and I hope that I won't be a procrastinator. Amin.

How Do I say Nothing.

2011-01-23T20:10:00.000-08:00

*song by The Damnwells.

I had finished my first speaking practices for individual task and group discussion just now in BEL class. Actually, I was running out of ideas when talking about the most effective ways to discourage youths from being involved in violent crimes but then, a very close friend of mine was being rebellious just now. Hahaha, there was the 3 of us but only the two of us were arguing each other to justify our points out. Hell yeah! We managed to end up the discussion more than 7 minutes.

And...
I had stopped giving texts to Amar for 2 days already. Yesterday, he was calling me. Trying to contact me, texting me but then, I picked up the phone and he didn't even say sorry about what had just happened two days ago. As if there was nothing happen. Yeah, guys... I understood. In the mean time, we argued through the phone almost an hour. Feelin' like throwing the phone out of the window.

---

"Awak masih nakkan saya?

"Tak nak"

"Betul tak nak?"

"Ye"

"Kenapa?"

"Fikirlah, kau selalu buat aku bertambah sakit jiwa. Aku dah berbuih cakap dengan kau, jangan layan perempuan tu tapi apa kau buat? Nak sangat dengan dia? Baguslah. Go ahead, I don't mind. Tapi aku bagitau kau, selama ni aku rasa hubungan kita penuh dengan penipuan, palsu semata-mata. Jenuh aku sayang kau macam gila. Aku duduk kat sarawak, aku nak keluar dengan orang lain pun pernah tak aku diam-diam dengan kau? Sebab aku sayangkan hubungan ni aku report segala apa yg aku buat kat sini pada kau. Kau tak pernah sedar"

"Jangan buat saya tension boleh tak? Awak tahu kan otak saya bukannya betul sangat!"

"Habis? Kau ingat aku tak rasa macam apa yang kau rasa?"

"Awak tu normal, saya ni bukan normal!"

"Kau suka buat perbandingan antara aku dengan kau. Sebab nak jadikan itu sebagai alasan. Tuhan dah cipta kau seelok-eloknya dan bagi kau peluang untuk hidup lagi. Kau kata kau tak normal? Pemikiran tak seberapa betul? Eh, kalau kau camtu pun, kau memang tak bercakap dengan akulah sekarang, bijak! Jangan banggakan kecelaan kau tu"

"Benda dah memang ditakdirkan"

"Takdir pun kau kena fikir apa sebabnya disebalik takdir tu. Ye, memang Tuhan nak turunkan musibah kat kau. Setiap musibah yang turunkan pada kau nanti dosa-dosa kau akan dihapuskan. Tolonglah fikir waras sikit"

---

He didn't even say about agreeing to let me go because he wanted me back to him but sorry, I'm no longer yours. That was a long time ago. Sorry to say that I have the right to make my own decision. What's done is done between us. You said you want to change but giving you time? I think that wouldn't be necessary anymore because I had given you a lot of time already yet you keep on repeating the same mistakes again. Yes, I wouldn't mind if you're such an imperfect person but stop doing the same thing all over again. Lying doesn't make you any good. Seriously, that would make you the greatest liar ever. I would want to see you changed one day but one thing you have to remember, I won't be there for you anymore.

Till then, bye.

You left me with no choice.

2011-01-22T11:53:00.000-08:00

"Ko nak pe ?"
--{ Amar }--

"Bagus sangatlah tu perangai. World is about karma, woman."
--{ Syd }--

"Hey bitch!if u really2 want him,just take it off.haha.married fast..don't be like a coward damn!stupid ass!chow yaww!"
--{ Amar }--

"Haha, poor command of english, sucker. Haha, I'm not a coward, I had enough of him. For God's sake, you're the one who should be married him first, right? You are such a dimwitted girl, my dear. No, you are worst than that. Get a dick and suck somewhere else."
--{ Syd }--

*No reply*
--{ Amar )--

Nightmare had just started when I called Amar to check him out, what has he been doing all the days and the one who picked up the phone wasn't him. And I knew something was not right. Haha, I was pissed when SHE pronounced my name wrongly but then, she started to irritate me, saying that I hurt Amar's feelings a lot and I don't deserve to be with him. So, what? He didn't even realised that after all these years, he lied to me many times yet I keep on giving him chances, keep on forgiving what he had done. But I learnt from my mistakes. It seems like she really wants him, I wouldn't mind about that. Haha, I'm sure she will take care of Amar better than I do and I think, one day Amar would love her more than he loves me. Well then, I will pray for him and hopefully he will fully recover soon.

Amin.

Future Plan!

2011-01-16T18:39:00.001-08:00

-This had written by friends of mine. Enjoy!

First candidate:
"Ten years from now, I will ...become 28 years old and by then, I would have become a successful farmer. I have been training my farming skills by playing Farmville on Facebook for years. I would want to buy things with the money I gain from my farming works. Then, I would like to find love in Paris, France and marry with a hot French supermodel. I would want to fulfill of doing hajj. I would pay the kindness and loving of my parents so I will buy them a new house and bring them to have vacation all around the world. I hope I can fulfill my wishes."

Second candidate:
"Ten years from now, I will become ...28 years old. I will marry and have a child with the woman of my dream. I will become a successful quantity surveyor and will own the biggest company of construction and employ all my ex-classmates under me. I will own a big house with swimming pools inside and outside. Besides that, I hope that I can travel all around the world. Lastly, I wish to open at least one burger stall in every each country around the world, especially in Africa and Sahara Dessert."

This has made my day! X-D

Far away from home.

2011-01-14T10:09:00.003-08:00

First of all, I will not be able to come back to Peninsular during Chinese New Year because I know I'll be having tons of assignments and dad is having financial problem at the moment. As promised I'll be the driver who will pick my friends and drop them somewhere in Kuching. Hmm, I'll be staying in Kuching till Final Examination. 4 months of suffering, dude! Anyway, I had just printed out the new academic sessions from student portal. I couldn't imagine that this upcoming semester break would be much shorter than before. :-( Well, if that's the case, I have to rearrange the time to open my blogshop or I have to hold it on first. Gahhh! I just want to go back home.

Oh, I just realised that my blog is filled with such long essays. Hahaha, I don't know what makes me to type down something that make my posts become long and whatever. Sorry for not making any of them into summaries so that easier for you guys to read them up. And I might not be able to update my blog as often as I was used to. Busy as hell, second semester is just started and I love my schedule this time. No classes at night and on friday. :-) Hehe!

Quick Updates.

2011-01-10T10:09:00.000-08:00

- I was driving from 10:30 A.M until 8:30 P.M yesterday. It was the best day in my entire life and yes, tiring as well because yesterday was my first time driving in Kuching. Unbelievable and so unexpected that I accidentally hit the barrier between the road like a few times and I did hit a car (opps), it was just a scratch and seriously I felt so damn guilty that I didn't say sorry to the owner of the car because he/she wasn't there and it was night already that I had to leave early as soon as possible. While I was driving, I was praying to God that I knew I was making a big mistake that time. Hoping that the person will forgive me for what I had done to his/her car. Other than that, I wasn't able to find my way to go back to Uplands Roundabout from Satok. My friends were panic as much as I did. We were lost in the middle of Kuching for 2-3 hours. Haha! I should have make a bigger map next time yo!

- I spent over hundreds ringgit for a week already! I should have not spend on clothes again. Syd, always and always remember your new year resolutions.

- My hostel is very far from my class so I have to wake up at 5:30 in the morning because I know that I will spend at least 30 minutes in the bathroom. At least!

- Mum called me a few days ago, telling me about my sister who has not been talking to my dad ever since the day I got offer from UiTM. Can you imagine that? And one of the reasons why my dad has been ignoring her because she has been always depends on him and my mum financially. What does she do everyday? At home, as usual. She did nothing except drawing and wearing costumes as my mum dislikes what she has been doing all this time. I understand that she likes being a cosplayer but at least, academic is more important. It is our priority. Without academic, people will look down on you. Right? My problem is, I am her sister and I should give her advices. I did but she won't listen to me as if I didn't have the right to be her advisor. Yes, I know. You could make your own decisions, fine. But you can't blame other people for that if you make the wrong decision. That's all. Bear that in your mind.

Gosh, it's 2:48 A.M now! I should be sleeping by now. Ok, byez.

Deserve.

2011-01-07T11:27:00.000-08:00

01/01/11 (Re-edited)

2010-12-31T10:39:00.000-08:00

Right.

Hello and Happy New Year! Okay, I couldn't sleep so I decided to type something on my pretty boring blog. I wish I could type something on but yeah, I'm seriously out of ideas. Haha! Currently I have been playing around with my veil, I mean I have been trying out all kinds of style of wearing hijab. Which I found many tutorials from blogspot and youtube. Yet I'm still searching for a simple style because I don't have much time for pin up my veil/shawl and wrap it again and again before going to class. I mean, I just want to know the simplest way to wear the shawl yet smart and stylish. Enough said.

Now, I have two phone numbers which I bought DiGi Prepaid Plan a few days ago and it's kind of sucks. Why? "NETWORK BUSY" again and again on 1st of January, so I had to wait until the very next morning. How sad is that huh? Anyway, lucky me I got maxis number. Haha! Or else I couldn't send text messages to some of my bestfriends saying "Happy New Year" for sure. Well, yeah some. And not to forget, thanks for the wishes, guys. :-)

Things that I wouldn't forget about 2010:

1) Having a job isn't an easy task to do so. First interview, then you have to wait whether you get into the job or not and yes! I got in. 1 month of training, how to get to know the recipes, communicate with the foreigners/customers as well as the other partners/managers. It may sound like "Oh, isn't that easy peasy, Syd?" Banyaklah kau.

2) Remember what I type about I didn't like my course at first? And why? Because I was hoping to get Architecture course. Yes, I did but I didn't want to burden my dad much more after all these years. I didn't go to private colleges/universities as well as polytechnic. You might say "Hey, didn't you know you just miss the chance?" but my instinct said "Why don't you try this course?" and hooyeh, I did give it a try. There was one of core subjects that i would labelled as susah nak mampus cos' my lecturers did say that many students failed to score in this subject. Hard enough, honestly. But thank God, I scored that subject. Yay for me!

3) Living in Sarawak has been the best thing ever in my life. Why? You got a lot of new friends from different cultures, different states. There's a lot of kind of food you can taste there and my favourite drink is, guess what? Teh Peng for sure! Dad said be adventurous this time, this is the only chance. The only thing I did once in your entire life - school life, university life. Feel it.

4) I faced many circumstances during the first semester. RM500 per month wasn't enough for me to live there, honestly but I didn't demand from my dad for more. Or else, I could waste on something that I don't even need it/is not worth to buy it. I've been so careful when buying things at shop. My mind started to twist and think something like "Hei, kalau aku takde duit nanti, aku nak makan apa weh! Makan penting!" Seriously, I always run out of food there. I always did. and for the whole of study week I didn't even study for final. Why? I watched movies a lot till 4 AM. I ate a lot, I didn't go for exercise, I didn't get the chance to go out from the hostel for the whole boring week so as weekends. How boring is that? But hey, that's how I live there. :D

5) Love life? Haha, soalan cepu emas sangat. Malas nak taip. Baca sendiri kat previous-previous-previous posts.

Here's some new year resolutions:

1) Go to bed early, wake up on time. Be punctual everytime to the class, especially during the exam week.
2) Bayar fid'yah, ganti puasa harus dilakukan secepat yang mungkin.
3) Never ever tinggal sembahyang.
4) Always keep in touch with mum and dad.
5) Strive for the best this year. Amin.
6) Do assignments on time, give full attention during class.
7) Buy a bike, for a ride to the class.
8) Save money for things that I need only.
9) Never ever do last minute study/revision. Always stick up notes at the wall.
10) Hoping my lovelife would be better. A new start will begin when I am ready for it.

Dull post isn't it? Yep, I know. It's been quite a long time that I didn't type a post this long. Hahaha! Sorry but hey, thanks for reading it. Happy New Year 2011, have a blast and take care.

Sick.

2010-12-28T04:16:00.000-08:00

3 days of suffering :-

1. My eyes are burning and watery.
2. I got an infection at my mouth, at the back of the jaw. Right side. Rasa macam ada beguk. I couldn't speak properly.
3. My right ear hurts so much.
4. Headache. Dizzy as zzzz

X_X

Enough.

2010-12-25T06:25:00.000-08:00

Looks like you don't need me anymore. People started to care about you especially your previous girlfriend who desperately wants you back. Yeah, it's okay. Lucky you, take a look around. People need you more than I do, they love you more. Good for you, sweetie. Hope everything would be okay with you by the time you realise that I am no longer by your side. Don't ever cry because it's over, just smile because it happened. :)

-Merry Christmas for those who celebrate christmas and Happy New Year, my dear followers and silent readers. Sorry if my blog is filled with emo-ish posts yet thank you for dropping by and following this blog. I'll be back to Sarawak on 1st January 2011. Hoping next year will be better than this year. Amin, wish me luck. <3

Dang! 2011

2010-12-21T22:54:00.000-08:00

2011, PLEASE BE NICE TO ME!

I have no idea how it feels like to be one of the part two students next year, starting January 3rd. My posts were filled with my boyfriend's name recently. Yeah, I know. My semester break is kind of sucks. Nothing much to do, I worked for 3 weeks only. Well, not approximately 3 weeks actually. Gosh, 2011 is coming.

1. I wish that I could give full attention during the classes so that I won't make any last minute revise/study before final.

2. I should sleep early and wake up early. I have been 'practicing' sleep at 4 AM and wake up at 10 AM - 12 PM during the first semester. How cool is that? :-D

3. I should ride a bike to the class, get some exercises, girl!

4. ...

Okay. That's all for now. Cheers! ♥

What Are You?

2010-12-20T20:43:00.000-08:00

There was a girl, which I had no idea where did she get my number from. And guess what? She gave me a warning, she wants me to stay away from Amar. What the point is all about? Yeah, his past 14 years old girlfriend has changed as I was kind of shocked that she was wearing tudung on the day I visited Amar at the hospital. So, yeah her mum looked at me and smiled. I smiled to her back yet I didn't say Hi or Hello to her mum. Same goes to the girl. I mean, I wasn't acting arrogant but I stumbled that time, seeing the girl has changed. Alhamdulillah but warned me to stay away from Amar? She wanted to be with Amar, told me as if Amar loves her more than loves me.

I did asked Amar, about this. We argued again, but I wasn't that cruel to hurt his feelings at this particular time. He is still at the hospital. I have a fews week before going back to Sarawak. I had enough of being heart broken, being hurt again. But Amar insisted me to leave him alone, he wanted me to be by his side. He really wanted me to be his fiancee as he already told his mum about this. Okay, that is one crazy idea to do so. I mean, HE IS REALLY DAMN SERIOUS ABOUT IT. I'm still giving him another chance, hoping that this time this relationship and everything that me and Amar shared together would lasted for a long time. Amin.

And to the girl who likes seeing me miserable. If you don't like the way I am, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT AS LONG AS I LIKE THE WAY I AM, I'M HAPPY. Why are you always not satisfy with me? You're not a God to change me, my look, my life. Oh, maybe I was wrong that you're such a hypocrite, girl. Be yourself next time. One more thing, before I end up my post, I love when saying this to her.

"If you think that you are perfect much, then you should teach me how to be one, woman!"

I want! 1#

2010-12-18T08:06:00.000-08:00

CRAVING FOR A PAIR OF KEDS! ♥

+ Credits: loopylou67 | hayarios | carina.isabel | nathanbranch

Cloudy clouds.

2010-12-15T10:30:00.000-08:00

Good morning guys, It's 2:43 AM. As usual, I hope I could get away from having insomania. Today is going to be my last day of working. So, better prepare myself or else, there will be a party for me. Not just a normal party, this one is going to be 'wild' party. Haha, okay. Kidding, of course. Maybe not so wild as you think/expect it to be.

Amar is fine now. I'm glad that he still remembers me, called me yesterday for second time. He sounded so happy when talking to me. As if we weren't talking to each other for ages, padahal baru je hampir 3 minggu but thank God, he is okay now. I am still calling him "pakcik" instead of calling him "sayang", he wouldn't mind and that is one of the things that I like about him throughout 2 years we both have known each other. :)

Quckie.

2010-12-12T03:26:00.000-08:00

Today, I didn't get the chance to meet Amar at the hospital as his mother disallowed me to do so. I didn't really hear what his mother said this morning, so I decided to go and visit him next time but I'm not sure WHEN. Well, there is always tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow. So, plan was changed. Went to Times square with a friend of mine, bought a pair of basic black flats for myself, had my lunch at 10th floor and went back home. Nothing interesting much for today.

About the blogshop that I had mentioned before, I decided to make it official around May or June. Meaning during my second semester break. There's a lot of clothes in my closet but I had arranged them and put them aside for you guys, I mean girls. :) Sorry for the misunderstanding.

It's 4:02 AM and I need to sleep now. Or else, I will be late for work.

Things I Worry About.

2010-12-11T11:35:00.000-08:00

1. Planning to open my blogshop soon, yet I faced big circumstances which I had to reinstall my adobe photoshop and get track all my preloved items to be sold on the blog. So, stay tune.

2. Yeah, honestly I failed my first JPJ Test. Serve you right! So, I had to find other driving school that provides VIVA since I was told by the tester to try out VIVA. Damn, money is another issue. I have to pay RM130 for the re-test.

3. I'll be resigning myself from work. My last day of employment will be on 16th yet I am still not giving the resignation letter to the store manager. Haha!

4. I'd checked out the class schedules for next semester. Packed enough, especially on Thursday! But thank God, no classes at night and Friday! Hopefully, there'll be no changes yet I still couldn't imagine assignments, presentations, tests, tutorials on the upcoming semester. First semester had taught me so many things, I guess.

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED. Shitz.

Result Final!

2010-12-09T10:20:00.000-08:00

+Click for a better view.

When a Dream Comes True.

2010-12-08T13:02:00.000-08:00

I thought it wasn't a dream this morning.

Amar's elder sister called me and told me that Amar had finally awaken from his long sleep*. Well, after 3 extra hours of driving classes, I called his sister and asked,

"Akak ada call saya tak pagi tadi?"

She said, she didn't. But good news, she said "Amar sekarang dah sedar, kembali dengan banyak songehnya itu" and ...I felt relieved. LEGA TAK TERHINGGA. Again, I wondered...that this morning it was a dream. I guess God wanted to tell me something. Alhamdulillah. Things are getting better now and I am hoping that he realised what had he done in past and learn from mistakes, be a good guy as well. God, hear my prayer and please make it come true. Amin.

And I realised that I did post something about him before this. I was emotional, was unable to think what's the best for myself and him since a girl was confessed that she was Amar's girlfriend for 3 years or she was trying to pretend to be one and made me jealous about it. I don't give a damn about it but honestly, I was cheated many times before and the 14 y/o girl was cursing me a lot, as if I was wrong. From that day, I knew that he made the biggest mistake causing me not to trust him 100%. Yet, I still love him the same. No matter what happen.

All I wanted now is start a new life, and what is past is past. Forget it, I won't be able to rewrite my past. I don't even have a time machine to go back in the past and I have to look forward. Whatever happens, whether I like it or not, surely I have to face it. :-) Be strong, Syd.

I'll be meeting him this weekend at the hospital. I bet I miss him so much.

*Baru tahu that the doctor gave him sleeping pills and he wasn't in coma after all, that's what I called a miracle, how could he survive? God is giving him another chance. Alhamdulillah.

Decision.

2010-12-05T00:50:00.000-08:00

I made a decision, a serious decision about moving on with a new life. I decided to let my boy go and let him decides which girl he really wants to be with once he awakes. I've had enough of fighting with other girls because of him. Enough is enough, fight won't be able solve this problem and the only thing I can do is MOVE ON AND PRAY WHAT'S THE BEST FOR HIM AND MYSELF. I ain't gonna involve myself into this kind of problem again, not anymore. Mum said, we might stand still in this kind of situation yet and hoping that one day, he will never have other girl. Maybe, she's right. A girl won't ever stop running towards the guy she likes the most. Imagine, if GIRLS running towards the only guy that I love the most. I gave up, I would like to say to those girls, I'll give him a free of charge if you guys want to.

I'm not going to tell him now. I mean, this would just hurt his feelings. As his sister said that I'm the only girl who he'll never let go. But yeah, I won't regret, I still have a long way to go anyway and I better be his best friend rather than his girlfriend. Don't worry, I wouldn't want to let the girls down but to let them have you instead.

I love you, Amar. You know I will.

Don't ever look back.

2010-12-04T07:39:00.000-08:00

1. It has been a week since Amar got into hospital and he's still in coma.

2. There is another girl confessed to me saying that she is Amar's girlfriend for 3 years, I don't know whether she's telling the truth or making a prank. Yet I did ask her what did she know about me after telling me that she knew everything about me? and she didn't reply. Told ya, you don't know me. Liar.

3. JPJ Test & final result will be on 10th Dec.

4. Meeting my mum tomorrow. Yeah!

5. 4th Dec, I would like to say Happy Birthday to my little sister who is 8 years old today and I get the chance to eat chocolate cakes. Yummy!

Feel dying.

2010-11-29T02:21:00.000-08:00

Went to Hospital Sg Buloh all the way from KL by a taxi, charged for RM34. Amar's bestfriend sent me a text, telling me that Amar got into ICU now and of course, only his family members are allowed to see him but I didn't care. Yesterday, I felt so troubled. I couldn't sleep till 5 AM and I woke up at 10 AM, I didn't eat much before I left. I went to ICU section with no restriction, found him. He was there, lying on his bed. Seeing him like that, I became speechless. I came closer to him and he was still unconscious, unaware that I was holding his hand. Seeing him breathing, I was relieved but somehow I was still hoping he was awake that time, wish he could see me with a smile.

His head was stitched and his left calf was wrapped up with bandages. I was standing beside him and didn't say anything as I hold back my tears over him. It has been 4 days since the accident happened and he is still unconscious. Hoping that he isn't in coma. Hopefully! I started to miss his texts and calls as much as I miss him. I decided to pay him a visit every Saturday, if I could. If I would be given a chance, I want to spend my time during this semester break with him, taking care of him at the hospital. All I can do now is pray for him. God, I'm worried.

Dear Allah, please save him. I begged you.

And sometimes, I wonder what will happen if one day, the person you love went away without saying good bye. I mean, we cannot predict when will we die but somehow, I wish everything will be okay. Amin. God, give us strength. Seriously, I cried after I left the ICU as I had seen him like this.

:(

I got this baby!

2010-11-25T10:23:00.000-08:00

Fujifilm Instax 100!
You have no idea how excited I was once I opened the parcel that day.

+credit to Lean (inkel).

Last Night.

2010-11-21T23:51:00.000-08:00

Was disastrous.

And for the first time, you were acting weird. As if you were not yourself that time. You were calling me dimwit, who are you to judge me? I felt so sorry about you because you work hard to make your own money, to live and so on. I am truly sorry but to be honest, from my point of view, I realize my existence is like a burden to you. When I knew that I've failed to make you happy, how on earth am I going to make you happier with me? Whenever we talk on the phone, our problems will never end there. We keep on arguing with each other for nothing. No more text message from you, and I miss them. I miss the old you, like how you used to make me calm whenever I cry. You always did something for me just to make me smile and laugh again. Now, you've changed. You said you can't stand my attitudes, I'm sorry that I'm your worst girlfriend ever.

And last night I did say I love you but you changed the topic and talked about other things. As if you were avoiding me. You said you didn't even care about me crying alone, what are you now? Yeah, we both will never understand each other. It is such a waste of time. 2 years I've known you and that means nothing to you, right? Think about it again, boy.

And I think I should never look back.

DIY Fisheye Lens.

2010-11-19T10:55:00.001-08:00

So, yeah. Finally, I made it although it doesn't look good enough but hey, it's worth. The most important part that you need to make this kind of effect is a door viewer. You can find it at hardware store, I found mine like 180 degree. And find something that can fit into you lens (Make it attach to you lens) such as soda can or 35 film case with tape. You need to attach the door viewer with the lens as close as possible. You can see how do they do this fisheye lens here. Depends on your creativity, you might make a better diy fisheye lens than I do. Well, my lens had this focusing problem (I think! I hope not!) So I had to make it manually. So far so good, I'm very satisfied with it. And hopefully this helps you guys, I know I'm really bad at giving instructions. Haha. But hey, what's the use of google anyway? Good luck guys!

+ Look at my samples.

Songeh.

2010-11-17T10:20:00.001-08:00

Currently listening to Justin Bieber feat. Usher - Somebody to love. Been spending my time, playing Heroes of Might and Magic 5. Now, I'm playing the warlock part. Imagine how I took half a year not doing the necromancer quest and end up I gave up, I searched for walk-through and wallah! I made it! Okay, it may sound like drama but it is true. So, sitting in front of the laptop non-stop 24/7. Okay, kidding. Went to McDonald with Lisa, ate Quarter Pounder Burger for the 4th time in my entire life. Quarter Pounder is much better than Double Cheese Burger, in my opinion. Hehe.

Oh, lesen kereta tersangkut tengah jalan. Tak lepas lagi ujian memandu. Hebaq.

Home.

2010-11-14T04:58:00.000-08:00

HELLO, KUALA LUMPUR!
♥ ♥ ♥

Pursue.

2010-11-09T04:55:00.000-08:00

In future, architect or quantity surveyor?

Or maybe, none of them. I can't say and I can't even judge between them for the future. Let God does his job for us. All we have to do is to pray and do our best for what we wish for. Insya-Allah, with all our efforts, we will be rewarded. I should have done Solat Istikarah for sure.

Dulu nak sangat jadi architect because aku suka sangat menghadap drawing board and buat mathematical drawing for engineering drawing masa sekolah menengah dulu. Seriously. I did mechanical, civil, electrical. Yeah, I know. All of them were related to engineering stuffs and I remembered that I get the highest mark for building plans. Then, bila dah habis SPM, start to apply macam-macam colleges and universities. First UPU. The first five options I put engineering but then I realised I was not qualified for it because of my chemistry subject. The only D I get for my SPM. Lolz. Till then, one day dad came to me and said, "Do you like maths?" and I said, "Yes, why?". Dad suggested me "Try QS".

First thing in my mind, I asked "What is QS?" so I asked my dad what the heck is QS all about. My dad told me, "QS ni kerja dia kira-kira dinding pe semua". Haha, I thought QS is a boring job to do but then, I gave a try for Rayuan UPU. Tunggu punya tunggu, dapat politeknik. Dapatlah dalam beberapa tawaran dari kolej swasta. Masa tu baru nak tengok yuran kos, most of them like RM22000 to RM24000. Alahai. Bila dengar ramai kawan dapat UiTM, I felt like "Hey, I want to!"

End up, I went to UiTM Shah Alam with dad and made rayuan with pihak UiTM there. They placed me in Sarawak, UiTM. Diploma in Quantity Surveying. 3 years. lolz. And guess what? Our intake for this time yang paling ramai sekali intake di UiTM S'wak. Two times than before. Shock? Trust me, it's true.

Well, my dad once said "Tak kenal maka tak cinta" so bila try buat measurement, I tend to love when doing it. I think I have the enthusiasm on it now. :-) Even if I didn't get to be an architect one day, QS pun okay. Everything happens for a reason. So, I should be grateful to be one of UiTM Student and be one of the QS students as well. Wish me luck.

2:51 A.M

2010-11-07T10:51:00.000-08:00

ONE MORE PAPER LEFT, ON THIS UPCOMING 12. PLEASE BEHAVE YOURSELF AND BE VERY VERY VERY GOOD TO ME, PRINCIPLES OF ECONOMICS.

And kenapa sekarang ni aku kuat makan?

14/11

2010-11-05T05:52:00.000-07:00

I want to go back home so badly.
I want to go back home so badly.
I want to go back home so badly.
I want to go back home so badly.
I want to go back home so badly.
I want to go back home so badly.
I want to go back home so badly.

Amar, his family, my new niece. I'm going to meet you guys soon. Take care.

What's done is done.

2010-11-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

WELL, AT LEAST MEASUREMENT PAPER 1 AND 2 ENDED UP ALREADY. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I'M SO DAMN RELIEVED RIGHT NOW.

Went to look at my carry marks for construction technology. Guess what? I did get the highest mark out of it! I mean, the highest in the class. Hooraayy! And surprisingly, I found my essay for BEL hanging at the lecturer's board, outside of her room. Good thing that I managed to get 10 and a half out of 15. I didn't know what the heck I was writing about benefits that we can gain from internet. Lolz.

Wanted to go back so badly, I was so excited to tell these things so I called my dad and told him about this. Till then, I realised when I was in form 4 and 5, I had no sense of competition with others. I didn't care about my ranking in the class coz' I knew I would be one of them at the top 10. Ahaa, menyesal buat macam tu b'cos I didn't put all my efforts on SPM last year. Or else, I could even do better for SPM, get better university, better university life, better new friends and so on. Well then, setiap apa yang terjadi ada hikmahnya. Alhamdulillah, I'm so grateful to be here, be one of QS student here. Happening sangat, I like.

Thanks Allah, kerana sedarkan aku kali ini untuk lebih berusaha this time.

Spoiledz.

2010-10-29T13:20:00.000-07:00

It's 4:20 A.M, I just finish watching Wall-E for 6th time.

It's been 3 days of final, everything is okay except for the last thursday. I made the biggest mistake in my entire life, I woke up late that day. Imagine I woke up 30 minutes before measurement paper started(!) I rushed like hell, and I did run so damn quickly, wearing my baju kurung, heading to the Dewan Jubli. Along the way, I took out my pencil case from the bag and walah! The zip was not close properly and all my pens went out from the case. Shitz! I screwed up! I had to stop and collect those things on the floor for 5 seconds on that and continued to run. So, yeah. I finally arrived at the hall, asked for invigilator where I should be sitting. Turned up that I had to sit the most in front of the hall. The only open seat at the front, all my friends were sitting at the back. I felt so bad, for waking up so late. But yeah, I took that as a lesson, anyway. I did well for measurement paper since it didn't have any blockwork, so it was kind of easier for me to answer. I did drills on past year questions of measurement the day before the examination. I managed to do the taking off in 2 hours and 45 minutes. Unbelievable. Haha.

Well, I guess Insomania gets over me again. Lolzzz

2010-10-29T06:41:00.000-07:00

Did you know that when people appears in your dream, it's because of their feelings wanting to see you, that they escape their bodies and enter your dreams.
- via immalimitededition.

Hoping tonight I'll be meeting you in my dreams.

Tomorrow.

2010-10-26T02:19:00.000-07:00

FINAL IS FCXKING HELL TOMORROW.

Couldn't imagine how my first day exam would be. 3 days straight, I'll be taking exams at Dewan Jubli. Spent my night yesterday, watching My Boss My Hero for the 3rd time. I'm totally fell in love with that movie so much, feels like going back to school. I realised how fun and exciting being a student in high school. We can only get through it once in a life time. School had taught me in many things, it's not about how to be a great senior prefect, how to get score all the subjects. No. It's all about how to enjoy your time in high school. You get to know your classmates, although sometimes they tend to disagree for helping you in some cases. It's normal. Yet it's good to know these things would happen in life. One of my favourite subjects is Mathematics, which I got A for SPM. I remembered how I used to skip math classes when I was in form 2, because the teacher as well as the class was boring. Hahaha, I still remembered how I used to skip classes with my classmates after break, panjat pagar, of course although I was a senior prefect. I miss my old classmates, they were superb. I miss my homeroom teacher who always takes care of us. I miss eating together with all senior prefects during break time. I miss everything in past, I wish I could go back in time. Shitz, why can I be in form 5 forever? Lolz.

School teaches me everything, I hope I could be a proper adult with a proper life. Insya-Allah. Amin.

I'm one of his fans.

2010-10-23T10:18:00.000-07:00

Yo Wazzup.

2010-10-22T09:11:00.000-07:00

My friends laughed at me when they looked at these.

Life is getting bored these days. Revision week sucks to the max. I've spent almost everyday, every single day staying at the hostel doing nothing, been updating tumblr at the night, skyping and facebooking. Internet slows as usual, I couldn't watch youtube and that's the reason why I haven't seen youtube lately. It takes a long time for youtube to be downloaded as well as for blogger and tumblr. There are still 4 days more before final and I haven't done any revision yet. Hebat, tahniah!

"Tebus balik untuk SPM, get at least 3.00 pointer for your first three semesters"

Err baiklah, abah.

Feeling extraordinary.

2010-10-21T11:11:00.000-07:00

SHITZ.

Got test today, final will be next week. Fcukyeahrevisionweek.

XMSYXR.

2010-10-18T01:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, SAYANG.

+ Happy 518 daysary ♥ ♥ ♥

Only God knows.

2010-10-17T08:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday
I did Work Below Lowest Floor Finish for measurement of construction works I. It was one of the individual assignments. For serious shit, the reason why I didn't copy-and-paste from a friend of mine was I tried my best to understand every single of it, how to measure every part of the plan. I didn't eat the whole day, I felt weak. Very, very weak yesterday. However, I managed to finish WBLFF within 4 hours, I had to rewrite WBLFF again and again since I made so many mistakes for the excavation of topsoil which is required to measure the length of every partitions, separately. I was so fcuked up when doing it for the 4th time. Somehow, I felt so relieved after hand in the assignment and I wondered how the hell am I gonna answer measurement paper on WBLFF, it's 100 marks for paper 1. No matter what happens, I have to deal with it. Do my best to get at least half marks for it.

Today
I watched Harry Potter 1st movie until the 3rd. I wish I could go to Hogwarts and be one of the students there. I ate mi sedap in the evening. Went to the town to have dinner with my roommates. 10 more days to go till final, I haven't do any revision for the whole day. God, make me strong in anything I do. Please. Amin. Wish me luck!

Obstacles.

2010-10-08T08:50:00.001-07:00

I've been staying in Sarawak for almost 4 months now. More like living here anyway. Since then, many things happened back at home. Things that my dad wouldn't let me know but my mum, who tells me everything what's happening there. Mum called me, she told me about my sister and my dad. They're not doing fine as my sister is not even studying for her upcoming SPM, she acts like SPM is nothing to do with her life, she never consider how her future would be and dad is another problem. He's currently like dumping her, asking my mum to pick her up and let her stay with mum. As if mum has the time to take care of my sister. My sister didn't even realise what is actually happened to her. Mum and dad are disappointed with her. I wish I could help. Hmmmm

All I did just now was I tried my best to calm my mum and comfort her. I'm sorry mum for letting you down, for not taking care of you. I've promised to you, at the age of 18, I should stay with you, love you with all my heart but I failed to do that for you instead I went to Sarawak to pursue my study here. I know, I missed you so much. I'm sorry that during raya, I didn't even think about staying with you even just for a day. :-( I'm really really sorry, mum.

You needed me so much b'cos I'm the only daughter who listen to you most of the time, where ever I am, I'm always be there for you. Don't worry.

"Belajar elok-elok kat sana. I'm counting on you" - Mama.

When Internet sucks.

2010-09-30T08:05:00.001-07:00

Just in case you wanna know.

2010-09-30T03:41:00.000-07:00

"According to psychologists from Australia, bad and gloomy weather is good for our brain and memory, whereas sunny and bright days are good just for our soul. An international team has carried out their research and discovered that while dark and rainy days make people feel gloomy, they also sharpen our memory and improve recall power. However, those who feel good under the sun, are able to remember less well."

You can read more HERE.

Quick Update 2.

2010-09-29T08:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday - Was taught about const plants and equipments. Finding out all past year papers for const tech, measurements & principles of economics right after the musical drama competition and the forum perdana. Slept at 2:30 A.M.

Today - Woke up earlier, class started at 10 o' clock sharp and ended half an hour before curricular. Did some colouring for models of foundations, sounds like an art class and made some drawings for types of voussoirs on the new chapter of the arches. Did some researches about Buildsoft for presentation this friday. I might stay up late again. Jeez.

Tomorrow - Class will be started at 4 o' clock in the evening, imagine I might be sleeping till noon. Hah, jk. I need to study for economic test this saturday, be prepared. Anyway, wish me luck. Hope I can do this.

Next week - 5 classes will be canceled, informed by the lecturers. Yeay.

67th post

2010-09-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

“Love is not a matter of counting the years, But making the years count.”

Approximately 499 days representing how long that I have been with you, through thick and thin. You've always be my bestfriend who understands me and knows how to handle me well. I am a girl with bad attitude sometimes, I admit that. I've always trust what other people said about you, where they are actually lied about you. I'm sorry for treating you that way. Even so, you have always been there for me, you've always tried to make jokes just to make me laugh although your jokes aren't that funny as I expected them to be. You've always said "I love you with all my heart" yet you know I won't say "I love you too" to you. You've always try your very own best to persuade me whenever I'm sulking. No matter how hard it takes, you're not a kind of boy who gives up easily. :-) That has made you my best boyfriend ever. Time flies and I'd never expect that our relationship would last up until now. Like seriously, God is planning something for us both. Hopefully it's a good thing, we never know what will happen, right?

"Some love lasts for years, true love lasts forever"

Amin.

I should

2010-09-27T20:26:00.000-07:00

01 drink enough water.
02 do some revision especially for principles of economics and measurements.
03 get enough sleep.
04 control expenses for a month.
05 sleep and wake up earlier.
06 get my assignments done on time.
07 wash my clothes daily.
08 not be a lazybum.

Quick Update.

2010-09-24T09:25:00.000-07:00

Had a slumber for half of the day. Fatigue, of course. I had a test which is Information Technology. Was expecting the test will be about Microsoft Excel or maybe other things that we've learned such as Powerpoint, Downloading Youtube and so on yet the test is about PC, notebook, printer, touch screens, joystick. What the heck, it's all about electronic devices. Somehow, I managed to answer them all although I have zero knowledge about touch screens, PDAs and also printers. Out of 30, I might get half of it.

Sept 23- Site visit at UNIMAS.
Sept 24- Information Technology.
Sept 25- Grammar Test, Recycle's Day, Marathon around campus.
Sept 29- Co-curriculum Quiz.
Oct 1 until Oct 3- Sports activities.
Oct 2- Principles of Economics Test.
Oct 9- Rekacipta Festival.
Oct 16 until Oct 24- Revision week.
Oct 25- Final.

Busy, busy, busy.

Big Mayday.

2010-09-20T12:28:00.000-07:00

I'm having a sleeping disorder, again. It's nearly 4:00 A.M and I had to wake up at 6 A.M, at least. I was planning with a friend of mine to search for a safety helmet as we, QS students will be going to site visit located in UNIMAS this Thursday. Without the safety helmet, we are unable to go then. Right now, my back is hurting. I think I've been spending the whole day sitting in front of the laptop, doing assignments. 3 had been done, 2 more to go, baby.

I need to get some sleep before getting myself fatigue in the class.

College.

2010-09-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

Back to Sarawak, back to UiTM, back as a college student.

First day went not good enough. Before going to the first class (BEL120), I woke up pretty much late than I did before. 7:35 A.M and the class started approximately at 8 o' clock. I took 15 minutes to make myself ready and quickly heading to the class. Fuhhh. Well, then the lecturer informed us that there will be Grammar Test on Saturday at 8:30 A.M. Seems like this first week after raya will be the busiest week ever. 2 Test, 4 assignments and 1 presentation to be done and will be hand in. There is one month left before final exam and I did nothing for revision. (Bravo, bravo!)

Two weeks of holiday went so quickly, hectic. Was going back to Kampung in Johore for only 3 days. I met my beloved mother and we went to watch Resident Evil that day at KLCC and did some celebration for Lisa's Birthday on 14th September. She turned 17 on 13th actually. The last day before the day I went back to Sarawak, a bunch of my friends and I went to Banting to meet up a friend of ours, Umi Raihan Safura. She told us that she will be going to Mesir to pursue in Medical. Degree level for 6 years. I was like "Woah, you're lucky, girl". In fact, she is the smartest among us. Hoping that she's doing fine there right now. :-)

Nothing much to say for today. I need to sleep since I had not enough of sleeping, then I'll continue to do assignments. 2 more to go.

Wish me luck!

What's on your mind?

2010-09-14T10:22:00.000-07:00

I'll be back to S'wak in just less than a week.

Classes will be started on 20th and I'm still not in the mood to do my assignments. (I have spend the entire week playing games, watching Chowder and Flapjack. Hahaha) Well, some of the assignments are group assignments. We aren't able to do the assignments together and finish them up on time. There are four of us; the two of us had to do our parts and the rest will be in charged by the other two. Sadly, we didn't plan for the models which we had to do two models of foundations. One of them is "pad" and the other is "strip". Heh, I'm just collecting some boxes and will be bringing them to S'wak.

And again...

I'm sorry for being an inactive blogger. I know, people keep asking "What happen to you now?" or "You're not updating your blog?" or "How are you, Syd?" or mostly would love to say, "ARE YOU DEAD!?" Haha, I have nothing to say. Sorry for such a boring post for today. Recently, I'm having fun playing around with my DSLR and hanging around plus had a great time with my all-time favourite BBF.

Hopefully that I could meet the others soon. Take care. Peace//

6 haribulan!

2010-09-05T05:23:00.000-07:00

AKU AKAN PULANG KE SEMENANJUNG, AKHIRNYA!!!

Doakan aku pergi dan pulang dengan selamat. Oh ya, sebelum terlupa. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin. :-)

Sibuk yg amat.

2010-08-14T08:43:00.002-07:00

1// Jadual aku packed sangat-sangat. Membuatkan aku terpaksa menggunakan masa yang sepatutnya untuk aku study, aku gunakan untuk buat e-sain-men yang berlambak. lol, tiap-tiap hari rabu ada tutorial. -.-'

2// Hari rabu hari kokurikulum, terpaksalah aku berlari ke kolej kediaman untuk men-transform-kan diri menjadi seorang pelajar yang bersemangat untuk berkawad. lol (again)

3// Sabtu dan Ahad penuh dengan aktiviti sampai tidur pun tak cukup. Bangun pergi masjid, perrrgggghhhh kesejukan. (Walaupun bertelekung)

4// Aku rindu mama, adik aku (Lisa). Aku tak sabar nak balik semenanjung, jumpa famili aku. Teringin nak berpuasa dengan famili, bersahur dengan famili. Sunyinya di rantauan ni. Haih

That's all for now.

Tuhan Saja Yang Faham.

2010-06-25T00:58:00.000-07:00

AKU DAH SAMPAI DI KUCHING, SARAWAK. TIBA-TIBA ADIK AKU SMS AKU MEMBERITAHU BAHAWA AKU DAPAT SURAT TAWARAN KE KOLEJ MATRIKULASI DI JOHOR, JURUSAN SAINS!!! KENAPA???!!!

Sobs sobs :'(

Setelah Berusaha, Akhirnya dapat juga IPTA.

2010-05-28T23:01:00.000-07:00

(Senyum panjang lebar)

Keputusan Politeknik.

2010-05-07T22:53:00.000-07:00

HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA!